Anything is possible

As you are reading this, sat on your sofa with a nice brew, I will be roaming the streets of the French capital. I will be sauntering under the shadow of the Eiffel Tower, watching the water glistening on the Seine and maybe even glimpsing in on The Moulin Rouge. I shall be enjoying Paris in the spring.

Well, perhaps ‘enjoying’ is the wrong word. If all goes to plan I will be running with some walking and even possibly crawling the colossal distance of twenty-six point two miles (42,195km in French terms). I will be running the Paris Marathon.

You don’t just wake up one day and decide that you want to run a marathon. It takes months of early alarms, vigorous training plans and a huge amount of determination just to get to the start line. After my injury I had pretty much given up. I had come to the conclusion that the run was not going to happen. I was in the mindset that it was beyond me. Physically I was not ready. Mentally I was unprepared. I would just go to Paris to soak in the atmosphere along with some sunshine and spend some quality time with my sister.

Then this week happened.

At the beginning of the week I came across a post by someone that I used to call a friend. It went a little something like this; “you had an illness 3 years ago…still playing the victim. Pathetic. #getoveryourself”. This made me feel angry, really angry. It took me back mentally to those horrible feelings you get when you get bullied at school. It made me feel inadequate, self-loathing and upset. Then I realised, I am not a school child anymore; I am an adult, an adult that has survived. So as a survivor I laced up my trainers once again got back to running.

Later in the week I lost my circuits virginity at the gym. I was paired with a lovely lady called Wendy. We got chatting, in the short rest periods when we could catch our breath. After telling her that I was hoping to take part in the Paris marathon, she was supportive beyond belief. Something she said really struck a chord with me. You can only push yourself. It doesn’t matter what other people expect of you, it is what you expect of yourself.

Then it was Easter, the nail in the coffin. Surrounded by my family I realised that with their love and support anything is possible. It doesn’t matter that it is going to take me all day to complete something that others can do in a mere couple of hours. Just to complete it will be the biggest achievement of my life.

Now, whilst I may not be completely physically ready for this feat, mentally I am there. I have downloaded my running tracks, had my medical form signed and even started to visualise myself at the finish with the gold medal draped around my neck.

So whilst you are sat comfortably with a cup of tea in hand, think of me, pounding the streets of Paris, running for me, because I am a survivor.

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11 thoughts on “Anything is possible

  1. I cannot believe someone would say that about you, well actually I can because I’ve had the joy of narrow minded people – I just can’t believe how some people are so stupid! Someone did it to me this week too, something along the lines of “why do you feel the need to post stuff about your illness, we all know you have a shit life” I wouldn’t want anyone like that in my life! Well done for completing the marathon, you are an inspiration to me and lots of other NMDA sufferers! Please don’t ever stop posting stuff, you are not playing victim! Xx

  2. Love your blog, no one can understand unless you have gone through the experience or been part for it with a loved one, true inspiration, my daughter has just recently been diagnosed NMDA Encephalitis, she is a true fighter and so are you x

    • Hi Katherine,

      I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, how is she now?

      You are so right, no one can understand but I am lucky to have people surrounding me that are a huge support – and I hope you do too! xx

  3. Well done, Liz! No mean feat. I’ve yet to go beyond a half marathon but hope to some day to raise money for The Children’s Trust.

    You have overcome your health issues and injury to complete the marathon. This has definitely gave me motivation.

    Very impressed, indeed! 🙂

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